I have to admit, I was quite undecided for a long time about whether or not I approved of Hannah Baker's suicide attempt being graphically depicted on "13 Reasons Why," a Netflix original based off the book written by Jay Asher. When I first heard about the release of the show, I was thrilled. Finally … Continue reading The Abandonment of the Suicide Attempt Portrayal on ’13 Reasons Why’
My meds make me fat. Well, fatter. I'm not clinically overweight. My BMI is still normal, my cholesterol is normal, I don't have diabetes or heart disease or any potentially detrimental health effects. No outward signs of being actually, significantly, problematically fat. But I feel fat. I look fat when I'm in front of a … Continue reading My Meds Make Me Fat: A (Mostly) Empirical Account
Hi guys!!! Welcome to everyone new, and hello to all of my readers. I decided to repost this introduction to really re-explain why I have this blog and what I'm here to do. Edit: When I wrote this post, I had only been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for a few months. Now I am going … Continue reading Introduction
Weird. It feels weird. Good weird, though. Excitingly weird. Exhileratingly weird. Successfully weird. Nervously weird. Abnormally weird. What-the-hell-am-I-doing-I-don't-know-but-I'm-ready-for-it weird. WEIRD. I'm in such a stable place and have been for such a long time (2 years let's GO) that when I read my old writing I hardly recognize it. I'm so thankful that those memories, … Continue reading How It Feels to (Finally) Become an Author
October 2016 I do not know what is happening to me. I have never felt this out of control before. I guess I have been broken, and now there’s nothing else but insanity pouring of me. Everyday I wake up with arms and legs made of bricks, and a bowling ball for a head. I … Continue reading Panic Attack
October 2016 Today marks my first ever meeting with a psychiatrist. A good ole crazy people doctor for good ole crazy me. The psychiatrist turns out to be a sweet, bubbly, round-faced young woman who looks more like a favorite elementary school teacher than a psychiatrist, but in a good way. I like her immediately. … Continue reading Misdiagnosed With Depression: A Circuitous Journey to Bipolar
Love him, hate him, remember him for his talent, remember him for his big mouth, today I want to celebrate my man Kanye West. (Yes, I know he said slavery was a choice) Kanye is using his voice as one of the most famous rappers of today to talk about HIS MENTAL HEALTH! His!! A … Continue reading Kanye West and Men’s Health Month
TRIGGER WARNING: A very beautiful and powerful story told from a mother’s perspective about how her daughter ended her life. Please read.
This is my beautiful daughter. Born 4-17-86 died 3-10-15. Her death certificate says she died by a gun shot wound. That’s only part of the truth. That doesn’t explain the real cause which is Mental Illness, more specific Depression and Bipolar disorder.
Jessica was in The top 20 of her high school class, 2004. She was in sideline cheer as well as the competitive cheer team, she ran track and had 3 amazing friends. She also had a little brother, Clayton who was 14 years younger than her but they were great friends.
She was far from perfect, I know she smoked and I know she tried some drugs and drinking but she kept up her grades and was very responsible. After high school she attended Aquinas College and graduated in 2008. Soon after she was working at Pine Rest Hospital at the north east clinic as an administrative secretary…
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I know, quite the hiatus. But it's summer time, and I actually have a second to breathe. Maybe even two seconds. Maybe even an hour long lunch break. So here's what I've been up to for the past year (year? yes, year): I returned from medical leave to my university!! Yay! I dealt with a … Continue reading Backstreet’s Back
Thank you to Okoto Enigma for creating "The Mystery Blogger" award and connecting bloggers in a new and hilarious way. And thank you to https://myloudbipolarwhispers.com for nominating me! I am honored and humbled by your random act of kindness. She is another ~bipolar 1~ sista, so if you like my blog, I bet you will love hers! Rules … Continue reading I Was Nominated for The Mystery Blogger Award!!